9.10.20: 1

1. We have a winner!

I am constant accommodation, and though I might see where the road is going, I’m too slow to ever be the person to say so. Every atom of my being oscillates each moment with less energy, outpaced only by the rate at which the molecular whole decays.

I wanted to talk, but I never really can because I’m always stood gaping at other people talking much more eloquently, saying far more interesting things. Here I am listening to one, then the other—they both make sense to me, I get where they are both coming from. Am I the dialectic? Even if that’s an interesting idea, I can’t give it written life.

Wanting to extinguish my constant wondering about what to write, what’s the right thing for me, I thought Chance would give me something to work with. I searched “randomizer” to find a website that would serve the purpose of randomly selecting a set of words that I enter into it. I typed the following words into wheelofnames.com:

  • novel
  • short fiction
  • science journalism
  • blog as it is
  • nothing – don’t write
  • autobiography

The answer was “nothing – don’t write.”

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